One of those Mothers

Yes I am one of those mothers. The mother that prays for school break to be over so she can ship her kids back to school. The mom that has a love/ hate relationship with holidays and summer vacation. A mom who absolutely loves her kids. 

I use to be the homeschool mom that rolled her eyes when a mom of public schoolers would complain when their kids were home from school. Karma baybee!!! I still homeschool 6 of my kids but the two that are in school need to be in school. 

When we first decided to put the boys in public school it was admittedly a very hard decision for me. At first I felt like a failure. Why couldn't I homeschool them? What was so wrong with me that I needed to put them in public school? Then I was afraid. They are mostly nonverbal what if someone hurts them and they can't tell me? But after a lot of researching and even more praying we felt like this was what God wanted us to do. Then something miraculous happened. Not only were the boys loving and thriving in school but the house was calmer, quieter and there wasn't a stressful angry heaviness here anymore. 

Now, I am able to be their mom and the school can do the therapy and make them eat and discipline them. It's not all on me. I'm not the only bad guy. Plus, they both have RAD, reactive attachment disorder. So anytime their schedule isn't the same say for instance winter break, things at home get really unbearable. They are both master manipulators. They can charm the pants off of any stranger but oh look out because hell hath no fury when you are their mom and dad. Usually there is lots of stealing food, smearing feces, pooping their pants, pooping in the tub (there is a lot of poop) pretending not to understand English or pretending all of a sudden to be deaf. Fun times. It brings a whole new level of chaos and crazy to the house. 

It's no fun when you are trying to have a great winter break and do all kinds of awesome traditions and just have fun especially for the other kids who really deserve to have a great time off.  We do insane things like put up a Christmas tree (gasp!), go to the zoo, bake cookies. I know what your thinking, I am the worlds worst mom. We put up the tree and there is lying, pooping pants, smearing poop and stealing food. We go to the zoo and there is pooping pants, lying, stealing, hitting, instant and profound deafness(man do I wish I had that ability. It could really come in handy.) We bake cookies and well you get it. It gets worse when people come over.  So that is our two week break from school. Imagine in the summer. So fun. 

So yes, I am that mom who can absolutely not wait for her kids to go back to school. I get more and more nervous the closer we get to breaks. I want to throw a party when I see the bus pull up to our driveway. And you know what...that's ok. I love my boys and I do what is best for them. I'm learning not to care what other people think and it's a freeing place to be. 

Be blessed